This is my first piece in a while that won’t be going out to some client. The details are not a concept in progress or something for a future venture. This is simply a doodle, I guess we can call it. Something I can chalk up as “art therapy” when I look back.
I’m going through as much inner turmoil as that fiery sun. On the outside all may be shining bright. Inwards though, there is a marvelous storm raging.
This place has made a shift. I, have made a shift. You can all feel it.
Usually this is the part where I gather all my things and exit as gracefully as I can.
But I’m not the same person I was ten, or even five years ago.
Although things may seem unclear (hazy), or like they are coming to a close (sunset), I assure you, I’m not going anywhere. No matter how many demons try to suffocate me, I will keep going on.
These “Card Castles” are not fantasies and wishes in my head painted in the sky. They never were. These CardCastles are monuments to those lost, and things that must linger, long after I’m gone.
We’ve reached the end of the month. While my physical health remains an issue, I’ve decided to keep working through it. However slow I get things done no longer matters to me.
I managed to forget one small detail back in November when I started freelancing:
I make the rules. I am in charge.
Although I ultimately am at the mercy of my clients if I want to collect payment, I am still the boss. I make my own hours. When things come up in my life, I need to cancel, cancel, cancel. (I’m still working on that part.)
The photo art pictured above was inspired by that very sentiment. Sometimes our bodies simply need rest, or we will keel over.
With January coming to a close, I’ve had to let a few people down. That truth hurts me. Having to detach from something effects me a lot more than most would realize. Especially since I know some of you reading have been going THROUGH IT lately, just like I have.
I guess what I’m trying to say is something I stated here a long time ago in my former “Daily Daydreams” section.
“Make time for love’s sake.
Make love for time’s sake.” – Daydreams
Have you had to let someone down recently? Are you a good/poor communicator?