This design almost didn’t happen but I usually do something in tribute to my father sometimes near Father’s Day each year. It’s almost become tradition here at CardCastles. He did, after all inspire the name Snapping Turtle, my design company & sort of production hub for the last year & a half or so.
I couldn’t help but think of all of the daughters and sons that may have lost their fathers in recent years or over the years these past few days. This design inspired by my late father is dedicated today to all of them.
If you ever read I’ll Light a Candle for You, then you’d know today is both my mother’s birthday and the anniversary of her death. It’s been eleven years, and yet the wound can still feel raw on days like this for my remaining family members.
It’s a time where I feel like everywhere I turn a friend is suffering from a loss or their family has been plagued somehow with disease.
I want to take this time out this Sunday to do things a bit differently. If you’re open to it, I’d like to try a little healing exercise/peaceful meditation with all of you. The trick is you have to trust me. (Details below)
I haven’t added music to one of my #SleepySundays posts in a while, and the following selection will only aid in our exercise. Since I recently had to omit the Daily Daydreams section from the sidebar due to scheduling changes (and changes with the app I update it from) I figured this would be the perfect time to share the music that inspired this art.
David Bowie – Lazarus
David Bowie’s newest song off the recently released Blackstar is being heralded by fans as a message from the late, legendary star as his goodbye message to all.
In the lyrics to Lazarus Bowie poignantly states:
“Oh I’ll be free,
just like that bluebird.
Oh, I’ll be free
– ain’t that just like me.”
In my thirty years on this Earth, I’ve come in contact with death more times than the average person. My life has been touched by cancer. I’ve lost several family members to different forms of it. Friends of mine have had their lives turned upside down by the disease and everything that comes with it.
When I first created CardCastles, the main purpose was to share my arts and writings and the stories behind it with the masses. However, there was also another reason. A morbid truth tucked behind everything that only a few people understood.
I stacked the cards so they would be something to remain when I too, perish. Little pieces of me, scattered about in some vast space so I could linger in some way.
I’ve had my own health scares of the cancerous sort in recent months. I’m sorry to tell you this way. I’ve never been good about sharing such personal details. I’m confident I’m going to be fine. I just need a little space to “regroup and recoup” so to speak. Please respect my privacy during this time. I promise I’ll let you know in some form when it’s over. I will still be posting regularly and there will be YouTube/video integration this year.
I guess what I’m trying to say is death and disease are two aspects of life that will seep in no matter what we do.
The minute we accept that truth is the moment we are truly free. Though, I understand it’s in our nature to fight. It’s what we do best.
So do me a favor this Sunday. Find a quiet place and do this:
Step 1. Close your eyes.
Step 2. Breathe deep.
Step 3. Exhale.
Step 4. Keep your eyes closed. (This is important!)
Step 5. Visualize yourself as one of those birds pictured above gliding over your favorite scenery. (If you don’t like birds, pick any winged creature, or even yourself, it doesn’t matter.)
Step 6. Add music (optional)
Step 7. Just keep flying. You’ll see. For a moment, you will truly be at peace, feeling ‘free’.
Do this for me so together we can somehow be at peace even though all of these terrible things effect our lives everyday.