A Sign

    A Sign © 2019 Snapping Turtle Arts | cardcastlesinthesky.com

Today is an odd day for me. For the past 14 years, I’ve had to deal with this day not only being the anniversary of my mother’s death, but her birthday as well.

When I want to celebrate her life & keep her memory going, that sudden sadness still tends to creep its way in. Understanding a lot of the roller coaster that is losing someone that close to you, I’ve been able to help others over the years.

For those of you that ask but rarely get an answer:

This is how I deal.

This has always been how I deal, cope, whatever you’d like to call it. Art is a therapeutic tool for me as much as it is a passion. Though, if you’ve been following here a while, you probably already know that.

I’ve got so much more to vent, but not here. We’ll save that for another Daydreams Diary.

Just know I care a lot about so many of you.

This one is for my Mom. 14 years and I still miss her like it was yesterday.

Happy Birthday, Mom.

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Sleepy Sundays: April Showers

This weekend I’m adding to the new gallery with something old and a few much newer creations. The photos are from the early and mid 90s, and most of the artwork is from this year. They are proving to be great additions for the spring season and this holiday weekend around this region.

Feel free to take a browse as I continue to move new and older items from Snapping Turtle over to here at its new home at CardCastles in the clouds. 🙂

Have a relaxing Sunday!

Sleepy Sundays: Force

Force © 2018 Snapping Turtle Arts | cardcastlesinthesky.com

There are a few new sets of florals I’ve got set up that will be shown here throughout the upcoming spring season. Road blocks have certainly been built up in my way since the start of this year. Last week was no different. Massive power outages in my region restricted internet access for a short while. Some electricity came back on, but then our connections became unstable. The result was a short closing of the site & its services.

Maybe it was the florals I’m working on, or the power outages that got me thinking about all things nature. Though I’d like to think it is the strong women that remain ever-so-present in my life through trial & triumph—sickness and superpowers.

This one is for all of the goddesses in my life that keep manifesting otherwordly beauty despite whatever negativity tries to blanket you and smother your blinding light.

Have a forceful Sunday!

Sleepy Sundays: Andiamo

Andiamo © 2018 Snapping Turtle Arts | cardcastlesinthesky.com

If you’ve been reading here a while then you know I lost my mother back in 2005 to a nasty combo of lupus-related complications and hospital negligence. She was my favorite person in the whole wide world and I still miss her to this very day.

One of my nieces is having a birthday party later today and I’m getting everything ready for the occasion as we speak. (I stopped here to chat with you all, of course. Since I’ve missed some of you too—terribly.) Whenever I get to doing “girly” things my mother tends to pop on my mind. Random things can remind me of her at any moment. Such is part of love and loss, I guess. So as I sat to practice my landscape designs for upcoming work, this one came out of me. It is based off of a day where my mother spontaneously grabbed my hand and started darting with me up this hill by our old apartment.

She often did wild & crazy things out of nowhere at the drop of a hat just because it “felt right” or whatever lit her fire on this day or that day. Just before she whipped me up that hill (It was a blast. I was a little kid and nothing could have been more fun than running through a field up a hill & then rolling back down.) she whispered in my ear, “Let’s go!”

Do you have a memory that just seems to stick in your head no matter what?

Have a spontaneous Sunday!


Fun fact: This is yet another artwork where I used the “ghost image” technique discussed in Sleepy Sundays: Ghost.

Sleepy Sundays: Imprints

Imprints
Mothers are very often the start or beginning of something in a family. There’s been some new additions to mine in the past few weeks. Common conversation has been how much both of these new little family members resemble other family members, one being my late mother.

I’ve been grateful for the little pieces given back somehow in this strange trip we call life. They inspired this work.


To the mothers out there:

Happy Mother’s Day!

Sleepy Sundays: Memories, Memories

She was on my mind since days ago, when I resurfaced from my work coma and realized Mother’s Day was coming up. While caring for my own son, who recently fell ill I couldn’t help but replay times I was with her in my head.

One of those times, one of the few times she actually drove, we had a blast as we set out on our journey to my old home.

This song that I couldn’t find for the longest time was playing. Last week I stumbled upon it on YouTube:

It was the most fun we had laughing and giggling for a moment in time. I miss her.

Flowers often remind me of her for personal reasons. So whenever you see florals in my art, chances are she may have something to do with it.

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Life has shifted to a point where I finally feel like I’d be making her proud. Growing up, she was one of the only people besides a cousin that ever supported my passions from day one.

She didn’t live long enough to see me get to this point. Yet somehow, I know she’d be my biggest fan. She always was.

She didn’t live long enough to see me become a mother myself. Yet somehow, I know she would love my son unconditionally.

Sometimes I have to pinch myself and ask “Is this really my job? Do I really have most of what I wanted in life? Yet somehow, even with that happiness and sense of achievement, on days like this, I just miss her. It’s a slap of reality that I am a young woman and yet most of my friends and family are dead. I’m determined to honor them. Each time use my hands and mind in unison to create arts in this world, I will honor them.

Nothing’s gonna break our stride, Mom. Nothing ever will.

Happy Mother’s Day to all of the mothers out there.

Sleepy Sundays: Mother

Mother Mother

Sharing this with all of you after a very rough and trying last few months brings a wave of warmth over me. This celebration of mothers everywhere isn’t always pleasant for everyone. There are some struggling as single mothers with no one in their corner. Some sons and daughters are mourning the loss of a mother. Couples all over the globe may be struggling to have a child, and some may have just lost one.

Much like life, not all aspects are glittery, and yet not all are so terrible either. The mother in me wants you all to be at peace. I want for each one of us to just imagine this picture of a growing child in their mother’s womb and feel comfort. You are not alone.

Happy Mother’s Day

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The song I chose to go along with this artwork is from one of my favorite videogame soundtracks, The Unfinished Swan. The song is titled “New Growth”. It’s quite peaceful and serene, don’t you think?

Hug a mother this Sunday!

Still feeling down? If you’re looking for something uplifting this Mother’s Day, read this.