She’s Got a Way

She's Got a Way
She’s Got a Way

If you ever read I’ll Light a Candle for You, then you’d know today is both my mother’s birthday and the anniversary of her death. It’s been eleven years, and yet the wound can still feel raw on days like this for my remaining family members.

We miss her. Her absence left me with a hole in my life, one I’ve tried to mend with Paper, Paint, and Stitches.

So I made this today, for her. Since childhood, art has always been a cathartic release for me. So we’ll play her songs. We’ll post her pictures. Hopefully, somehow, we’ll all get through the day.

It’s been eleven years.

—And yet I still miss her like it was yesterday.

Happy Birthday, Mom.

We will always love you.

(Whitney was her favorite. 🙂 )

Celebrating 2 Years!

Today CardCastlesInTheSky is celebrating its two year anniversary.

I would’ve loved to throw a huge virtual birthday celebration for it but, the truth is – it caught me a bit off guard this year. There’s been a lot going on in my personal life lately. I promise things will start to get back to normal here by the fall season.

For now I’d just like to thank all of you for being a fantastic group of readers. I appreciate your love and support every day. This place has done some great things for others. After two years, it’s now beginning to help me too. So thank you from the bottom of my heart for that.

I hope to see you again for year three! (I’m promise there will be art & a bigger party next time.)

Last Year’s Celebration
Celebrating 1 Year!

Sleepy Sundays: Cosmic Creation

Cosmic CreationCosmic Creation

When trying to get a grip on 2014 some unexpected inspiration hit and hit hard. Everything is so new still. I’m a bit overwhelmed by some issues that carried over from last year. The world always keeps turning, though. The universe certainly doesn’t stop for any one person.

My other half and I are celebrating our 10 year anniversary tonight. Although life is not always pleasant, it somehow keeps giving you chances to start over. All of these thoughts of “new”, cycling, and restarting had me thinking of space and how it all works. Even though I’m pretty sure the stars didn’t have much to do with my son’s father and I meeting – I can’t deny the possibility that there was some otherworldly force at work.

Have you ever felt something unexplainable was in control?

Have a spacey Sunday!

I’ll Light a Candle for You

I struggled to write this post today. Every fiber of me didn’t want to, but I knew it’d be therapeutic.

Today is my mother’s birthday. I’d like to think of it and celebrate it as just that, but I can’t. I can’t because this is also the anniversary of her death. She passed away 8years ago today…on her 43rd birthday.

I’ve spent the last few years of my life being a more positive person, and trying to help others like me move past their grief & depression. Yet today, I can’t help but feel sad. I miss her. I miss her with every ounce of me. I miss the talks we had, I miss her goofiness, I miss her smile…I miss her.

Murphy's Oil Soap
If I see or smell this stuff, I’ll cry. She used to clean with it. We’d laugh and joke about how we loved the piney smell.

Certain objects and things that remind me of her still induce tears.

There are many artistic tributes I’ve done to her, but I struggle writing about her. That is the most personal for me. Somehow, I was able to today.

Maybe someday I’ll build the courage to write a book about her. She had a way of making most anyone feel better. Yet, when she was upset, so were you. If she cried, it would break your heart and become contagious. She was a wonderful person. She was my favorite person.

Shine

I love you, Mom. Happy Birthday.

(She always liked this song. Strangely enough, the morning she passed away, I came back from the hospital full of tears. After I cried my eyes out for hours, I turned on the radio and this song came on.)